Colossians 1:16-17

"For in him were created all things in heaven and on earth: everything visible and everything invisible, thrones, ruling forces, sovereignities, powers-all things were created through him and for him. He exists before all things and in him all things hold together"

Some weeks back, I had a breakdown of sorts. Worries filled my thoughts and anxiety persued. It was a harrowing time for me and my loved ones. I am grateful to my family and matt for being so patient.

I was worried about my mortality i.e my health, my job, the future, the present, the sufferings to come etc.. it caused my heart to race, my head to spin and my stomach to turn.. For the first time I experienced truly.. Dread.. I don't know how it started but I know how it ended:

Yet in this dread, a quiet but firm prompting nudged me to find my anchor. I started learning how to meditate (not after much persuasion from my doc and dad). And I meditated upon Colossians 1:16-17. It slowly dawned on me that He is at my beginning, at my end and definitely with me in the in-betweens. An assurance and comfort filled me. My life is held together in Christ who is my Rock. While some days continue to be a struggle. I am comforted to know that there is a being greater than my fears, more powerful than my insecurities and this being loves me till the end of time.